Don't adjust your sets
Mood:  down
Now Playing: yesss
Topic: i don't have a topic??
Man.. i've really started thinking lately.. i've decided that i'm a horrible person and am going to change my view on the world... *_*. i really don't think outside myself much.. mainly because myself is way to confusing to understand. i'm pretty sure i don't know anything actually. i just want not to care and have to worry about the way things work and the way people work. People are too different and i can't really judge them, but i want to have everything in the world to do with them. this is sounding really weird. but i feel kind of depressed for some reason. i don't have a reason to.
things cost too much
that's probably why. thinking costs too much. i'd like to spare my brain. mainly, i want to have a social life spontaneously invite people over, but because of circumstances it gets weird. so there. i've said it hahahaa!!
i can though, why am i making such a big deal?

i don't think i'm a very good friend of anyone. i guess.

guah.. since when did i get so dramatic. no more of this, brain, no more.

i just want to be a better person, so this is my goal from now on.


but i got a dress today!! ^_^ *smiles smiles*

"I've never been on a date with a 13 year old girl before."

Keep watching and there will be something exciting at the end!!
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Cutie- Okui Masami
Topic: Pita-ten always said that
Someone just called for Kelsey. I'm not Kelsey. I'm not not Squee-meron. Hahahaha. FUKUI-SAN! SQUEEZE-ON!

Sadly Iron Chef is a mystery in itself.

So yesterday was a good day, i felt very smart, but i was really bored at home. And today i felt less smart but not as bored at home. I kind of decided that.

So i definetly cut my bangs too short. This always happens. I was all psyched about not cutting my bangs too short like i did last time by getting them wet but then i couldn't see when they were dry so i cut them too short. I was trying to make them angled but that didn't happen either.

I think the demon lord is listening to me!!!! jlsdsdemon godfjalsj!!

haha.. that didn't happen.

so i definetly just typed 'demo lord'. "Oh mighty lord of demos! Please give us another sweet example!!"

And then I definetly just typed 'might lord'. "Oh might lord! Please teach me how to be a manly man!!"

Haha.. the 'lord' is really rough on the previous word's last letter. And for an exciting bus time conversation, diary in spanish is 'diaria'. i'll let you figure it out.

Hey! you know that bug i typed about some time ago (my life is so exciting.. this is why no one reads my blog) Well, i had a dream last night that it ATTACKED me!! Or rather, it attatcked my hot dog. because it was night time and my mom grilled hot dogs, and she gave me one already in it's bun.. and so i went to eat it but the cicada came at it!! And so i tried my hardest to ward it off, but it wouldn't go away! and so i went to my front yard and my radio went off and i though 'someone could have very easily kidnapped/attacked me because i was distracted by that stupid bug. and i wouldn't have a hot dog ;(

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My cat has something against prom fundraiser packages...
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: Sakura Saku
Topic: not like i did it anyway
And now he sits on it.

There's a really weird bug outside.
it's those kinds that won't shut up at night because they keep chirping.
it's green.
i think it might be a cicada.

You see, i too can write poetry.
It's very simple.
you just press return after your sentences.
like this.

So! a rundown of the day:

1. I went to go draw a picture on a wall for art...
2. i had the premonition that it was gonna be the worst day of my life (don't know where that came from.. like a weird dream)
3. We sat around but the janitor never let us in so we walked around school and there were horses 0_0. that should happen more often.
4. lovely heather person took me to ren fest and umm.. we ren fested. unfortunately we didn't find kk until we had to leave due to technicla problems.. (gomen nasai!)
5. went to elaine's party which i'm not certain if i was invited to or not. whatever, it was all good. but the whole strobe light made me feel like i was in a dream. i hate that feeling.. this whole day felt like a dream.. my dreams are usually more exciting than my life. i don't know why i mention this when it's so obvious. but no one really looks forward to dreaming, i guess because you don't remember it. but when life sucks, that is when you look forward to the excitement of dreams, even if they don't mean anything.
6. There isn't really a 6.. i just kind of went on a tangent during five, so it didn't exactly end... but yeah. strobe lights do weird things to you... i felt like i could have just fallen asleep/collapsed standing up. i don't like that feeling, it makes one insecure.
(7) the only reason there's parenthesis is because i could have seen corpse bride. but i'm kind of out of it so maybe not. how does heather do it? meh... i'll see it someday.

I'm not hungry. this is so weird. fattening food makes you feel icky like that. because hunger feels good *_* not really. only when there's ramen...

and i still want to play an instrument.

Mood:  sad
Now Playing: The Brilliant Green: Baby London Star
Man, you know how those times in your life all kind of develop a certain connotation? and when you look back on it you kind of are surprised to think it was like that? it's very interesting.

Even so eveything is set on a hairline, so i can't really determine if anything actually changes. time to stop being philosophical... it'd be weird to read back on this and remember this mood, for instance.

i don't even think i'm really sad. i don't feel sad. by the way my circumstances are, i should be depressed, but i don't think so.

SO! here's the spigget! oh no.. i'm an idiot. i just put on hiiragi which is a sad sounding song by the really awesome group Do As Infinity who is splitting up. v.v things really are sad. And my math test had infinities on it. v.v which i probably did badly on. i can't spell infinity.

this is the kind of time when i want to draw.. but i can't even do that..

so everything is looking really pathetic. i don't think i like fridays anymore. i wish i could dream *_*. Where did that come from? Ahh... i want to retreat

....and another really sad song comes on.....

this is actually pretty funny and ironic.

am i bad for being happy when other people are sad? or is it that i feel worst when everyone is happy and i'm miserable. i'm really starting to question my morals.

this post is getting pretty long. is this a 'rant' post? i'm not really ranting....? i should answer things with more questions? sounds good
no wait! i was going to do something when i talk but i forgot what it was.

maybe i'll just be happy all of the time. cheerful. i think that's nice.

*happy song starts to play*

lalalalalalalalalala.. stupid naturally synchronized background music.

so what do you think? is there anything corporation of meron can you better? send it in with a questionaire found at your local grocery store today!

waaahh
Mood:  chillin'
Topic: wowww
that's been awhile since i last posted 0.0.. so long....

that's crazy, but i'm lazy, so please don't haze me, cuz it'll just phase me...

haha.. i could be a rapper. well, what's happened the past week and in excess.. la di da...

oh yeah! so today i definetly found out (sorry, i can't remember anything that happened the past week) what those bumps on your arms are caused by dead skin..? i think that sounds right. that's weird

And so yesterday i went to heather's oh-so-fancy drag queen party and there was much rejoicing and time warping.. i think i'm getting the hang of this!!

So yeah.. last week i got sick and got better and felt depressed and did stuff and watched eddy izzard and felt not so depressed and did some more stuff and i drew some stuff for once.

and... sometimes it's fun to act sophistocated and be very vague about things. i was going to write my definition on blogs that make no sense but i decided to do it on video games at parties and i think it's almost fall

and this weekend i'm going to go to ren fest so it should be good times!

that's about it then. yup. OMG!! wait just a cotton-pickin minute!!

okay.. so i usually go to engrish.com and on the front page there's usually the engrish of the day, and sometimes it's kind of bad, sometimes not. so today i got bored during seminar and went on the computer at school and went to engrish and on the page in large print it said ,'WARNING:

If you are easily upset by vulgar four letter words,
then I suggest you do not visit Engrish.com this week.'

well, i didn't really read all of it completely so i assumed that it was just some thing engrish puts on the site to first visitors to warn them about bad stuff in the site. that's bad timing either way.

anyways! that's all for now!

Back in action...
So... have you ever been behind the scenes? Like a movie? i am one of those people who are hired to walk behind the cast and make the setting look lively.

In other news, i do believe part of that granola bar i just ate got caught in that weird passage you have that's kind of nasal but not. and you know what it feels like when you get water in it and it's all dense? it kinda connects your mouth nose and ears.. very weird.

So the first paragraph was a metaphor.. i can't say that the second one was.. 0_0

It kind of tastes like caramel corn jelly beans..

Soo... i've been entirely apathetic. that's a good word. I have tons of h(handy)w(wallabies) right now and parties to go to.. but this is normal, deshou? yes, i have no presents..

What the heck am i rambling on about now?! 0_0 why are you still reading this?! hey! hey! hey! yo! yo! yo! yo! yo! school rumble forever.. haha! my brain hurts from the granola now..

Soooooo
Mood:  down
Now Playing: melocure - home & away [4:29] - okusama ha mahou syoujo
Aaaaahhhhh (said with inflection) man.. i'm still in this slump... it's like.. being in a trough so to speak. It's not very good for any self-morale i was building. anyways... maybe i just shouldn't think about it. then it will come back.

i have homework.

something else. has anyone seen the new h*r short? it's a-very nice.. maybe. man... hanging out at trogdor con... it's called japanimation.. or at least since i last checked... since 1987....

hahaha... woo.. i feel woozy from too much DDR.. i should probably go do the assignments i was assigned so i don't get assasinated.

...on another ordinary sunday
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: shimokawa mikuni - minami-kaze [4:06] - full metal panic! The Second Raid
Topic: stepping out...
hohoho.. hana yori dango makes me laugh XD. man...

so i've been in this slump lately.. i can't think straight. I mean, i've gotten a really low opinion of myself. but what else is new. SO! I'll get out of this slump haine style!!


maybe not...

Tonikaku! Yesterday was very fun! I went to Emilia's party at kk's house and man.. i think i made it evident how good i am at water volleyball and movie trivia!!


maybe not...

ohhh! but it was so fun! I like ThePirateMovie!! It is a marvelous thing to be a pirate king!! in the 80's!! hahaha!


maybe no---OKAY!! ENOUGH OF THIS!!!!

And there was much frolicking. I feel like going to ren fest.
rahhh!!! I have nothing to do today. the boredom sets in.! panikku! jan ken pon! 0_0! Labor day fest sounded like fun! i heart greenbelt ^^;

and... that's about it. have a good die!

hyuu hyuu hyuu hyuu
Mood:  celebratory
Topic: osu osu osu osu
Here i am. so the fill-in. on saturday i went to waldorf and got such excitements and went to em's house to celebrate that birthday of hers. gosh.. don't you just hate it when that happens.. *sigh* lol. no. happy birthday axy-chan.. (the cigar up top is for you. it's got a pound of weed in it). and then we got hairs cut and we now resemble stylish people. although no one can really tell anything happened to my hair (i knew i should have gotten layers) anywho! i don't care, but what freaks me out is that my brother who helps me with calculus strongly agreed with me when i told my mom you can't really angle long hair. i mean come on now. i suppose he also knows how to color coordinate for a trendy and stylish fall look.

moving on to our next topic. hurricane caroline. i mean katherine. i mean katrina, that's the one. or is it with a 'C'. no... it's a 'k' my brother just informed me.. anyways hurricane katrina is about to throw new orleans away. poor new orleanseans. poor rice. poor french people. hopefully they will invest in a good poncho. hopefully some excitement will happen here.

and there will be exciting times all over.

The end.

yatta!
Mood:  a-ok
stupid happa-tai. stupid otakon. stupid PVs. getting me all obsessed.. waaahh i can't help it

IT'S SO EASY!!
HAPPY GO LUCKY!!!

oh dear.. well, if i haven't scared you away by now, that was a random excerpt from the song 'YATTA' which currently is stuck in my mind. otakon burned the fig leaf-briefed clad happa-tai into my mind.

and it's stuck there forever...

..G.. R... double E.. N... leaves... *_*,

but tomorrow is wonderful.. gahh!!

yes. lately i've been feeling blah so maybe i need this insanity. i haven't been inspired to do anything. and um.. i find it very encouraging.

and not much happens. just feel like bored. and unworthy. unworthy boredness. yes. i am unworthy of human contact because i am incapable of acting like a normal human. those of you who contain the courage to read this blog should know that by now. and i should probably stop naming people as it gets old... don't you think?

maybe. i may have to revise my strategies.. this could be a clue to those psychologists out there trying to unravel the mysteries of my brain.

why can't girls wear fig leaves?

yoshi~!!